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[cyberbrain]

I had a pretty bad breakdown last night. I couldn't deal with [a specific bad thought] and, well, I'm still struggling with it but I feel a bit better. The reason it hit me so hard was probably that I'd only got two hours of sleep the prior night and I react badly to strong emotions when sleep deprived.

I slept, got eight hours of sleep and life was marginally better. Thanks to all the crying, I still had a headache when I woke up this morning but it eventually cleared up during the day. To distract myself from the bad thoughts, I tried something that I hadn't done before—I went to reread the comments I'd received on my fics. It helped a bit.

Then, a few hours after that, I got a new comment, which was so lovely it literally rendered me

.
(Yes, I really hugged my phone with the email notification and cried.)

I'm so touched and grateful. That comment pulled me out of the misery hole.

And also, as of today, with this person's kudos, one of my fics has finally reached 100 kudos. *throws confetti* Now, I know 100 isn't much but... screw that! ONE HUNDRED KUDOS!!! ON ONE WORK!! I'm gonna let myself be excited and happy for this! Fic is such a big part of my life and I'm so happy that there are people who like my work. ❤️❤️❤️

...Okay. Enough of my crying. I'm going to eat and watch some more Lost Tomb Reboot.

Comments

[trobadora]

All the hugs!

And congrats on your 100 kudos!

[cyberbrain]

*hug*

Thank you!